BUSY working for chemistry as i sacrifice my slacking time for chemistry extra studies.. As each day passes, the nearer the big O is here.. i'm not giving up yet, i'm never going to XP.. for a promise!!

Today was you can say a slack slack slack day as we watched the muslims(no means of racism) went off..

5 periods of DnT ( did nothing as i didn't nid to learn some programming, so played solitare at the com lab all 2hrs +)

then it was recess and was been "requested" of our time by some people of the NYP, trying to drag us into a camp for IT, but of course none of us was interested but we entertained them anyway, ended up spinning some computerized wheel lucky draw.. Won a Pen.. so went back to class late for 15mins, Miss Tan( the english teacher ) was pissed at start but she understood and let us in the class..

2 periods of SS ( teacher went off for shes a muslim, so skipped the banded lessons and stayed in class for the relief teacher wasn't a SS teacher, but we were very "GUAI" as we did our Chem worksheet but ended up in some weird conversation with YanHua and Anthony..

Lastly 2 periods of Lit ( as usual.. its like an free period)


Well afterschool came, went for chemistry.. went to Prata House... and done with the day

Well maybe going to celebrate Selemat Hari Raya and Children Day.. Nahs just kidding

Well....the start of the spamming disease is here...
so be wary for its contagious and its been spreading around
so far there are about 5 person being affected
so please qurrantine yourself from a blog's tagboard before you get infected..

lol

nahs just kidding but seriously theres a serious serial spamming case
over a few blogs.. victims are around 2-3 for now including me

XP

bt yeah take a look at my tagboard you'll understand...


I'm still thinking of the Drama Club though my stepping down has already been about a month now... man i really don't know how to let go of things...

for some reason everyone is staring big eyed at the F1 but honestly i don't feel much about it.. true its one in a lifetime but since i'm nt really into the F1..not much into cars like most guys are..i wonder why too


Nothing much else to blog about...

Been addicted to Neyo's Closer and Because Of You these 2 days...

Jealousy

Jealousy builds up
through your every sweet talks
as myself i slowly doubt
released from the hope's stalk
released from the fate's lock

As day become night
unchanged with spells
with love i wish to take flight
knowingly i had fell

from hearts taken out
tactfully thrown aside
hiding truths known about
yet find no place to hide

travelled from and to pain
engulfed in that sourness
i'll wash it away with rain
or so thought with naiveness

from afar i glittered with envy
looking at the sweet nothings
stacked inside enraged fury
brought upon to bring
from unrequited story
filled with unwanted sorries

Jealousy builds up
overwhelmed it leaned against
crushed by those hug
of the jealousy angst

Say Hello Izzuddin for 25/7/08!!

yeaaa i was izzuddin for e day and izzuddin was kenny for the day!!

well it all started when i stole his jacket/sweater and wore it, then it started... it was kinda funny actually though it momentarily lost it..

anyway "Kenny" accompanied me to the popular in Kovan, bought 2 science assesment books, can't believe it either...

well and thats how the interesting day was done, concluding from the remainding sunlight that faded through the misty afternoon from heat due to yesterday's falling storm..
0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

Feeling the pressure from my classmates and my schoolmates,

during midyear they all got 20 or 30+ for the L1B4
while I and 2 or 3 of the others got below 15 or so

But noww theres many of them getting below 20

(Heyy, everyone wants to top in something right? its nature's instinct... u beg to differ??... you can stop lying now XP)

But yeaa i do wish them great results, its just that i wanna be slightly on top..i know i'm being selfish, but just can't shake it away....

but anyway i'm still maintaining for the prelims but gonna aim higher for Os, especially looking at the fabulous scores of other class..( 98/100 for maths, can you even do that?? issit even humanly possible?? )

so my scores is not gonna be as high as expected maybe??

well left 1 week and a day to graduation from school... i'm still gonna miss the prom T.T

A Wait For The Certain Someone

Never seemed to move
always so stagnant and still
those vivacious touches that soothe
the once hardened hard will

taken away from the truth
but it can't stop it to unfold
as from lies it grooves
with strength to behold

these blankets covers
not only from thee hatred
but from thy lovers
whos feelings patriot

like a wounded bird
waiting for some concern
for a hand to pick it off the dirt
a hand of a certain innocent

injuries, reason to leave behind
days become more alone
exposed to the harsh wind
waiting a gentle breeze blown

for the days i spent myself
searching for that special one
but time detoriates thy health
nearing it to the death's throne

from young i've waited
for a someone i'll hold
to a new world created
our universe without woes

yet today i fell ill
trying to hold on tight
forgetting how to feel
as the light slowly turns to night

the page was the last
yet you didn't appear
felt I falling fast
for you i shed my last tear..

Well had many stuff out to blog but had forgotten them all XP

So anyway i received news that i cannot attend the prom night.. that is very excruciatingly disappointing.. i've looked forward to this prom night since who knows when, and when i'm so close to that date, 14th November...

Sighhss...

the reason?

because i'm leaving for New York on the 13th Nov!!

1 day before the prom night....

guess thats the defination of so near yet so far away...


its a last sprint for Os now i guess i'll be more serious and start some intensive revising...

for i'm not too happy with my prelims result

English - B3( 65 )
English Literature - B3 ( 68 )
Chinese(O Level Results) B4
Combined Humans(Social Studies and Geography) A1 ( either 75 or 81 )
Combined Science(Chemistry and Physics) D7 ( 46 )
E Math C5 ( 56 )
DnT B3

Prelims are finally ended, i've somehow managed to pull through without optimistic opinions abour my results, but i'll cross everythings fingers heart and everything to wish for a good score.. "meditates n crosses everything"

but i'm unsure of what should i feel, relief? for its over?
worried? for O's coming
or other options


Inspirationless
i need something to fuel my inspiration, as i look back the pages of my book, i've found that many poems n songs are left uncompleted...after inspiration goes it never came back..

Guess the future is one thing we cannot harness

The 9-11 was yesterday.. closed eyes and mutter a prayer..

the sore throat that started a day before was still bothering me, stirring up a painful swirl with the mucus in my nose drooling here there, costing me 2 packets of tissue during my Maths paper 2..

bought stuff from e NTUC and other department stores and stumbled with izzu and carol..

then went off to the home econ room and started cooking up a storm!!
with Kenny's(the main dish chef) Dan Chao Fan(egg fried rice)
Carol's(the fruit chef) Fruit Salad
Izzu's(the desert chef) Strawberry Shortcake

well at first i was thinking of doing everything myself but without Carol and Izzu i would only be able to finish everything at 5pm...Yea yea yea.. they were GREAT HELP!!
u 2 happy now? lol but seriously they were great helpers, might consider hiring you 2 HAHAHA

its kinda fun, I've BEEN REALLY HYGENIC!! I SWEAR!!
then e somewhat celebration started off at around 3+ tucked in
created many things!! like nicknames!! kinda stupid but yea it was suppose to be anyway..

at about 5pm finally went home, exhausted and feverish.. took a nap with many awakenings, till i couldn't stand looking at the thermometer that started with 38.3 to 38.5 to 38.7 so finally went to see a doctor that accumulated to a $74.50 fee... a good $30 more for a midnight charge when its only 10.15pm

but anyway my dad was like putting ice on my forehead till it melted.. finally the fever went down in e morning but still feeling the chills..Didn't study much for Geography.. Sighhhs

My stomach is empty but its not hungry...i've been surviving on water and a small bowl of porridge today..i'm still not hungry...

I WANNA EAT MY MOONCAKE
SO MAY THIS SICKNESS FADE

Cracking Crack Cracked down from studies... appears that i have really went overboard with the studying during midyears..i feel nothing for the prelims..i feel no motivation to study...all i've done was to read through and scan through instead of studying... how horrible will my results be??...


Lately as time goes by the more replaceable i get..you might not notice but i'm becoming of a guy that is easily replaced by another..i'm not irreplaceable from the start.. but just that the sense gets stronger nowadays...

Crossed my heart and hope to die...amen




The Door is closing
causing light to be fading
upon this life i've been reading
only to understand that i'm failing
No longer up for the taking
without wish to stop revolving
seeing those who never stop living
thy view no vision of rising
Dreams seemed to be forming
a form to see no easing
an ease to form teasing
a tease to ease reasoning
From afar something beckoning
but nothing but full of questionings
questions that failed to stop answering
without my light i see unsettling
i see no more hands calling
for the want thy aiding
That Door is closing
The Door is closing

Chemistry Today... sighsss...

well anyway it wasn't so bad but just that some questions i just blanked out suddenly..definately could do better

These days i'm hooked up to listening live songs, i gain satisfaction from feeding on their enjoyment while singing... awww its great,fabulous to know how to sing well or just even sing.. BUT I CAN"T SING!!! and i'm not afraid to admit that 0.<

Wasn't able to post yesterday as i was staying over at my cousin home.. These week has been unproductive..stayed at home and play game all day long...

My cousin's dog has given birth to 3 adorable puppy, hers some of e picture..

Just finished this movie "Tiramisu"
somehow it just reaches to me...
Tiramisu..Italian for Miss You...

Love is BitterSweet..just different kinds of bitter and sweetness..

I'm Bitter and She's Sweet
Thats Right..
I'm The Bitterness In Your Sweetness

heres a link to the show
http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Tiramisu_-_Movie