A tiny part of me wish that
you'll just break me
carry on to crush me
and then shatter me
before pulverising me...
just take me down till i don't stand up anymore..

But why does a single word, even "goodbye"
seem to anesthetic everything..

HAPPY 17th BIRHTDAY SHAREENA

and also

HAPPY 56th BIRTHDAY DAD!

Hope everything goes great and smashing




i'm lived with ego
i take everything to myself
i want to shoulder every burden
i desire to take it all myself
but i don't want to let you know
i don't want to show it out
i want it to be a self recognition
but there ain't a person unthirsty
unthirsty for acknowledgement
i crave for listeners and followers
as well as understanders
i'm unlogical and irreasonable
so incomplete
chaotic disaster

Before it strikes 12 i would say..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMELA!!
Now you're old too
old pamela = oldmela = omelette

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OMELETTE!! =D


childcared today.... had fun =D, missed the kids plenty

Thanks Eileen for helping!

School Reopens

was lazy to go to school, wake up early, and take the bus ride.. but was happy to have " a life " again..

so nothing much happened today except shareena pissing her jeans and shirt...

Wonder if the kids would remember me tomorrow when i go to the child care... hmmm, only 1 way to find out.



i woke up from a dream
an illusion so weird
a fantasy that beckons
that dream i dreamt

its funny how close i got
and how easy it was
my hands around your shoulder
and my eyes to yours

somehow simplified
but i could confess
just like how i did awake
but in a closer range

with my arms surround
i asked the question
an question i've longed the answer
was there really any chance

with a laugh you laughed
and a no you admit and answered
that answer i always knew
but never believed

i woke up with a heavy heart
thinking how literal it was
even in my dreams
you were just unreachable..

BBQed for 2 days in my brother's chalet, watched ppl drink and drink...

i found 1 alcohol drink i didn't really mind drinking atlast, Baileys( Mint Choco or Caramel )
still i didn't like the pure alcohol taste at the start but the after taste is superb...

will post photo yet again tml

Sighhs i miss the childcare kids...

Went for T02 Chalet 2 days back..

Had fun and spent majority of the time BBQing and Mahjonging ( i got new students =D )

anyway, when i reached home at wed 12pm, i slept the afternoon away and woke up to have dinner before i slept the night away too..... sighhs....

Then went to Robinsons with my mum for the whole day after waking up at 6:33am, unable to sleep somemore... Had my first Carl's Junior Experience....

photos tml..

In the early previous morning, met Shareena and Pamela to go to ponggol for hiking and to just sit around at the beach.. we hiked and do stuff for about 2 hours..

and at around 8pm, met with Joel Anthony and ShengYao to eat at Chomp Chomp, ordered Fried Oyster,Satay,Hokkien Mee,Stingray,Clams, not forgetting giant sized sugar cane drinks and also the milkcurd =)

They stayed over at my house, doing nothing much in particular, just slacking and fooling around..And they go home at about 6+am in the morning..

After that, woke up at around 9+am to find a sharp pain of stomachache, and also a very high fever.. after going to the toilet to try and release my business, another problem caught up, vomitting, as i watch the remains of yesterday's dinner go down the sink, hurriedly returning back to sleep. Waking up about 2 hours later, and tried to drink a glass of water but instantly vomitted out all the water... Yes stupid food poisoning...

Anthony were the only one who shared the hokkien mee with me, and he and I were the only 2 that got this food poisoning, so if i'm not wrong its the hokkien mee...

Its really a wrong time to have this illness, i have a full schedule ahead of me...