I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA WORK... it appears that i've been rotting rotting and nothing else but decomposing at home...

Today went to lunch at Hougang mall with mum and bro at Ichiban...
then after that, as we walked around, a lady of about 40-50 approached us, initating and convincing me and my brother to go for a blood test, to find out what type is our bone marrow, and if there is a match, we could be the only donor that could save the life of the patient..

they kinda used a clip to puncture a hole in the left thumb then just squeeze some blood out on the paper.., it isn't really pain i guess, its more of irritating and annoying sting..

It got me thinking.. How great would it be, to just meet a stranger that you could be the salvation for, and simply greet them, thanking you rentlessly, and inside you would probably swell up in pride and self-respect... Yet would you dare to be the salvation of someone you wouldn't even know..

You wake up, in a dream
you realize, something you hadn't
you figured out the desire
you reflect rentlessly
to acknowledge or repulse

Dinner with half of the 4e08 and Ms Tan, THANK YOU FOR THE TREAT MISS TAN!..
i think we ripped her off, $344.++ at Orchard's Sakura
was bloated and sprawled all over the table...

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Perhaps You were always right
Maybe I was wrong to ward it off

Watched Year One the other day, 3rd movie of the week, my wallet has plasters on them.. it was alright i guess, lame till funny kinda flim.. 3/5?

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Maybe when you look back in your memories, deep inside somewhere, you knew a person, which started off from a stranger who you never thought you would know, and slowly with time as judge, you became close friends with, as you got closer, you might think that you know this person well, but in actual fact you don't... That very stranger that became your good friend, you slowly get repulsed and irritated with that friend of yours, and slowly you find that you unconsciously reject your friend that reluctantly tries to amend, but no, you don't ease up, you badger that friend even more, every word you deny and every action you brush away.. then you find the distance slowly enlarging, theres this barrier that momentally formed after your constant signs of avoidance, then uncomfortness kicks in, then you find the relationship fades away, and slowly you distant.. you cannot see it but that very person is human too, he feels the hurt from your constant reprimandation for being himself.. then you find yourself being shunned by that very person you shut away... and in the future, you find might possibly find yourself haunted with regrets and try to make amendments, but a broken relationship needs more than you can even give, even if you managed, it'll never be the perfect feeling in the past

Midnight Fantasy

i'm sure i speak for more than one person other than myself, but the reason, the truth of why we stay up late into the night or early into the morning, is not just because we don't want the day to end but the looming darkness that present itself upon us, sparkles an undeniably charm, a jewel of self reflection, self pity, self deception, self fantasy, self interaction is born within us during this period of time, it strangely makes us think even clearer than usual, it rings a tune in our mind and heart, a tune of escaping, its a moment where you're alone and you feel like its another world, a world of peace and serenity, a world where it is truly yours... and with these reasons, we're enstrangled and enticed into the midnight fantasy

Maybe i've been trying too hard
trying too hard to love you

Perhaps i've been trying so long
to never let you go

So much that
its possible that i've already did...

It might be that i've succumb to my fate
maybe a few steps too late
trapping myself in delusions
with all the deceiving illusions.

I tried with my heart
but reciprocate isn't what i expected
i know, yet its too difficult to part
before i knew it, i'm already infected

Maybe i've had one look too much
maybe its a stab too painful
perhaps its too much for me to judge
perhaps i've already been too sinful

Saturday was a cousin outing night, went to ps, walked around, had dinner and went for beancurd then home...thanks inez,jackie,jj for treats..

Sunday was another busy day, went for my cousin baby's full month shower... the baby was so tiny and till i can figure out how to upload the photo from my phone since my bluetooth doesn't work, i'll just leave it like this...

Monday comes and at about 2pm i have Principal and Practical of Classroom Management(PPCM), the last piece of exam paper i'll see before going on my 2month break, woke up at about 8:40 and reached school by 10:15 to start studying, i mean start as in start literally.. the paper wasn't that bad i guess, but it seemed unbelievable since the scores given are high for the question and my answer was half a page long... didn't seem that i could obtain good marks...
o well =)
then after exam, went with Rachael,her bf, Kethyln, Hamidah, Rafidah O Ma, Bingxue and Peiqi Nuna to watch ORPHAN! at The Cathay, the story was really nice i reckon, scary meter was okay i think, but scare-able i guess.. 4/5 for me =)
after that to Lao Pa Sar for dinner and Fabulous Cream( city link icecream parafait ) for supper before heading home...
not a bad day at all
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