Ok, the third day of work today, just 5 more to go...

I really do not understand nor do i want to on how do someone work in such boredom, perhaps a matter of habit, i do admit, i don't feel much when i'm working, its like for that period of 9 hours, the zombifying process occurs and everything like a rubber band that strungs back, after work all the dreading begins, the start of the day, you think about work and how long till it ends and at the end of the day, you think about how many hours left do you have till you have to go back to that zombifying process...

Horrifying...

The fleeting march in the mrt, is a proof of stereotyping, as i walked the path of the grown up in suits,my music skipped a track and i hear the clicks and the clats from boots and heels in unification, it kinda instilled fear of growing up in me....


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in my fear i thought of you
thought of how it was gonna end
or perhaps by miracle start
i can't help myself
i dare not say love,
but i l can't choose who to like
and i like you

Sometimes i really hate the feeling of being in an airport, i'm usually like life, honestly elated to be there since i know theres still time, yet as time slowly ticks towards departure, i become more and more reluctant akin to the density of fear and despair that grows, since i know someone is leaving as each plane leaves ground, coming back or not, a future unknown yet. though its a casual trip there but still, it doesn't escape the heart.


MOONCAKE FESTIVAL

Sunburnt from soccer at bishan today, for some reasons my hands are burnt yet not my fingers...

Incidently,
Walking back the trail we strolled, under the dim lights of the night sky the other day which was a crating leap of time away which yellowed and dulled with each passing second. That day you were in tears, while i stood beside helpless, i wanted to help, make it all better, and throw it all away, yet i couldn't.. as we strolled the very same path that i walked across today without you, i couldn't help but to feel the gush of grim... i grasped your hand for a second and pulled you to the mist of the park, trying to set you on the swing, if that was something i could do, yet you didn't, we carried on, i watched while we walked, with my fingers drilling into my skin, trying to figure out some ideas to bring back the cheery you, yet i did nothing but to watch your tears dried up and slowly allowing no more tears to flow.. That was something i didn't sign up for, i wanted to dry your tears for you not to let them dry it up by the harsh air..

it seems that i could do alot of things for you
but none that you'll want

so i've been at home partially procrastinating about finding a job for about a month now, wasting my life away, i don't know how am i gonna survive in the future... so to ease the boredom i am currently playing NEOPETS.... but i swear neopets is discreetly making kids into gamblers, cos i've been playing 90% of card games like poker blackjack on neopets....

On another note, went prawning with shengyao yesterday once again, prawning with him is really some serious business

Fighting the selfishness

Cut my hair today, ain't that great...

I finally played soccer today after a month of not kicking a ball.. after 90mins of playing, a heavy bout of rain suddenly poured in admist everything.. We had to stop and moved away from the field..
It was then it dawned upon me, as i stood up and started to take a step into the shelter, it pretentiously recollect to the scene quite distant away, perhaps 3 months..
I remembered drenched, soaking wet from the rain, with cautious steps towards your house, i tried to hide the envelope under my body to keep it dry, i held my breathe and hecticness trying to look alright even in the rain, i called you up to say i've reached your block, meet me at 6th floor.. you came down in your white purple shirt, before you took my sanity away again...hesitantly accepting the envelope...

Today I Miss You Like Everyday Else

Hadn't had much to post

GForce 3D was pretty okay
watched it at illuma, the cinema was not as great as i expected though, Flimgarde movies are quite expensive i reckon...

Previously bought 2 shirts from bugis and pennisula respectively, still need to get some polo n tees, perhaps shoes and a backpack...

Really stumped on the subject of work, i want to work yet, i can't find a work, even if i find a place to work, i'm too shy to ask for the job... The Recoil job beared no fruits i suppose...

I kinda know that i'm losing out but there isn't much i could do against that innocent attitude with that contrasting face, yet i'm the total opposite, innocent appearence yet contrasting attitude...

Facebook Keeps kicking me out for god knows what reason

Listening to Touch My Hand, A Little Too Not Over, Crush by David Archuleta these days along with So Sick - Neyo and Thinking Of You - Katy Perry...

Didn't see or talk to her or even try to contact her for quite a period of time but i'm drained yet i know this is supposed to be the norm...

Seriously Craving For Prata

Went Cathay to watch Dance Flick which was quite horrible actually, it wasn't exactly funny, there wasn't exactly a story and it was only 80mins... or maybe luckily it was only80 mins? $6 wasted..

Then went wandering about from dhoby ghaut to orchard after a quick lunch at nishi mura with shengyao and yanhua.. 3pm-8pm of walking about ion, and everywhere else...

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I just can't forget you
with immerse efforts
to push as to shun
only to fail and prevail

Sinned within innately
slightly and slowly
take me away tenderly
from which i attract constantly

Dissuading added on rejection
all harping against my affection
little and little chained to dejection
devouring the heart section by section

Consumed with fear
knowledge of impossibility
accustomed to failure
for my flawless imperfection