A Simple Like

Repeatedly till its countless
i heard it all, and fought it off
unable and never to escape this curse
a cure for it never been solve

I lay awake in the pool of memories
pounding against the inner of my chest
where pain begun and started to feast
a symptom you'll never guess

Clutched to my head
the pair of solemn hands
the tears mixed in sweat lined in a bead
struggling to forget in the time of sands

Years went by being named stupid
not to deny, a synonym of a truth
who to blame but the stained self cupid
ran so far and disappeared without proof

Familiarity of you were the ruins left
as every pieces seemed to link without flaw
perhaps i missed with the remains too heft
but i slowly lost what i used to saw

I calmed the fevorish fever
with years it painstakingly took
looked across what i defined never
found a glimmer of heaven with that look

Along with the spins of the hands
I slowly forget what i held so tight
with a miracle the hole begun to mend
mocking the decending stairs in height

How could one so perfect be allowed to live
never had i seen someone so ideal
everything i had, i could give
yet all i had was all you would kill

A facade I paraded to hide the shattered
planned a scheme to make it work out
inside i knew was a lie for me it catered
i never understood in the end whats it about

It became abandoned and uncharted
the places that had your names written all over
my eyes scan and everywhere it darted
with you i was drunk and now i'm sober

I left the carnival exhausted
we played too much on the carousle
dizzied with question i fostered
and with a heart slightly wish to fold

A normalty you have became
like with glue, its too attached
not too different and pretty much the same
you threw nothing but the balls i catched

Love was too strong of a word to use
like was an understatment to express
for you i fell head over heels
but in the finale it fell less

Morning call you would call it
a wake up you didn't expect
it tangles up the inside with a hit
turning the brain to a wreck

Filled with denial, it rejects the thought
yet with tiredness, it welcomed the new
unsure to the fact of what you firstly sought
wondering with a needle with a stich it sew

Time to close a chapter i demanded
end it all to begin a new fairytale
but with a history, how was i to handled
there wasn't any hearts up for sale

Densed as i lost my sense
led to believe without a clue
an attack i hardly survived without defense
there wasn't anyone else but i asked who

Illusions of you on my back
now i wanted to let go to take a rest
but always a way you abled to track
in me a scar, a tattoo with you crested

There was so much more i could go on
how was i ever to end then
so i leave it for me to wonder upon
how to fix this enormous dent

Along another come just in time
too perfect for the world of reality
the blurred vision started to chime
i wavered at the loyalty

The tip of the rope i was at
required more strength then i could muster
dragged along in the tracks i let
additional pieces added on to the cluster

Helpless without hopes i stay
pondering whenever i had my mind
was i to stay or to fray
i wished again to give me a sign behind

Burried in the misery i curled up
confused with so many ways to go
resembled an overflown cup
without a handle to be hold

Eyes awake i stare
with no conclusions i came out with
perhaps no longer should i care
alone by myself i could live

Maybe by myself i could
Maybe by myself i should
Maybe by myself i would
Maybe by myself i suit


I'm tired


It takes every focus of mine to pry you away
drained every inch of my soul
till you take a step i shall stay
yet take too long, i might go...