ThAnKS

sorry to the friends and thanks too for the past week..i've been down but still i found out a few days there is no point sulking and making others sad too so i should stop it and become the kenny i would and is..so once again thanks ^^ i'm back to your usual and funny kenny once again ^^ maybe i would not post so much due to my mood...as i wait for the day i would be acknowledge and not ignored

i'm sick resting at home for 2 days and tml would be goin to sch i guess

another poem..

Silent Replies

As you talked could you stop?
Hear my speech for its too long?
Please not till i am gone..
For the deeper tone
Till the Silent Reply

Hoping you'll hear
I could only write
in my blite
maybe you're hear
my silent replies

Silent replies
for you to carry on
in an diffrent angle
as long as i'm inside
not on the other side
for the silent replies

Till the day you're willing to hear
my absolute silent replies


(a new creation)
A Poemetic story

It all started without love
and we without gloves
as i thought it'll be save
of not being burnt
and will be taking to the grave

As it moves on
my heart shatters
listening your cries
listening to your laughter
i smiled
i wished an eternal smile
for you'll always be happy

I thought as i move on
if i was ready
in reply they answered me
if i'm truly happy
i said i am

When i was there
you had to go
to somewhere
the leafs gotta go
along with the wind
with a tree chasing
that decides to let go
just for awhile
before starting the chase again
for it is immposible to let go

The leaf flew by the tree prayed
and said it many times
but leaf had to go
leaving the tree
some shattered hearts
and said to forget
which could not be done

The tree felt it was ok
as he started chasing
he could not find
he prayed for a shout which didn't happen
now he wanders around
for the leaf to reply

and he forever begs
and beg ,beg ,beg ,beg
wish,wish,wish and wish
hope,hope and hope

one word to describe today.."tragic"

many things flew through my mind
things that could not have an answer soon
maybe in the future?

please anyone tell me my flaws
cos i feel that i don't understand myself anymore
my mind is messed up and i can't thing anymore

today's school was a fast 1 as there was no extra lessons so aft 5 periods of dnt,1 period of naggin about maths and a quiz,a period of chinese spelling and lastly a period of litreture which does nothing much(thx to the teacher)

so i went home with 3 friends trevor,clarence,joel
on the way i was injured(veri slightly) and humilated by clarence
har har har
pushing me into the bush is so fun...

then they went to my house while c and t was playing my bro's ps2
while me , my bro and j was searching for a handphone ear plug which could not be found =.=

then they went home...watched animes

then went for tution(zzzz!!)
however the coffee ice blend kept me awake...
on the way home i saw a rainbow and was so beautiful but when i reach home i took the camera onli took a veri veri fade picture of it...




next i met with the TripLe L
because
1. big bro Lee sheng yao
2. 2nd bro Lek kenny
3. 3rd bro Loy joel

went to orchard to visit my mother at e hospital after a surgery
i'm glad that she looked good and did not sound or look like any bad pain or something like that..


off we went to dinner at paragon with Tori Q!!!
one of the best bento in the world
i had the unagi one!! ^^
then we went market place look for bro and bought sushi at half price and chop the price summore cos my bro colleuge put $2 price tag on all 3 boxes hahahaha!!
and i treated the triple L some drinks ( i had pokka coffee)

next station
shop for joel wallet!!(he wanted a leather 1)

so we went to find the wallet shop there but to our dismay it was closed down and changed to other shops so we went the 77th street to buy( he bought a somewhat common to mine but for $49.90!!!) rich...we chatted and joked all the way even when we were lost in paragon awhile and also the hospital...

we started scaring each other with hospital ghost and zombies while we were alone in the quiet hospital...

back we are at my mum's ward

while we were playing drum mania with my bro's laptop we heard those when heart beat stops the kind of flat tone so we were freaked out but it was my mum's medicine has ended so we found the nurse aft 15mins to change it( i was so scared)

the fav. part of hospitals is the drink vending machine i like the way cups drop, drinks fell and ready it flashes (a little coffee from my big bro and teh tarik ice for me)


then brother game watched his perfect score of drum mania then we went home as it was around 10++ already


we stopped awhile at mac eating ice cream cones and afraid we missed the last train we rushed to the mrt station( i haven't finished mine..i threw it away sads)

we saw the man we ermmm.. feel sorry for (he was a blind and deaf i think) i donated around 50 cents(almost all my coins) while sy donated 5cents.... what the...

then we went home
and here i am
with super active eyes but tired body
thanks to coffee( i'll post the photo some day)

i heard the a quote from the serial drama

"friends could be forever but husband and wifes may not stay together"

this quote left me thinking

if you are friends are always wouldn't your heart be forever kept inside?

i know this feeling therefore now i'm confused

Princess

Your smiles ever so bright
gleaming with the light
your sadness is my blight
i wanted to share your fight
against sadness with rights

you are my princess
watashi hime~
the princess of my heart
my forever princess
you are priceless

bestow your smiles to me
and my mind would wobble
falling in the trap of love
which i would never be free
as long as you exist
my forever princess
watashi hime~

i thought of another poem while doing a poem in lit. class (could nt rmb the lit poem)

Everlasting Love

The first sight of you
makes my heart flutter
and melts like butter

The love i felt was that strong
and could never be wrong

It was then i felt
an period of everlasting love
moving to grove
i was like a dove
searching for a cove
which represents you
someone i can confine in

I sway to your smiles
i miss you for being away
even for a mile
i may be guilble
but i know
this is my everlasting love

i'm happy whenever you're happy
though you could be a little yappy
i could never be snappy
never to you in my life
cos you're my life
so heres my everlasting love...

i noticed that i have 2 things i do not have any fate with,
1. Umbrella(i'm using my 4th umbrella in 4 days,i changed 3 and the 4 is almost spoilt)
2.my eye(everyone loves to injured my eyes!!! sec 1 till now not a peaceful month that has gone past and has nothing to do with my eye)

=.=
=.=
bad lucks...

well today have a veri good luck today ^^at around 3+ it happened to around 4+?

It was a rain rain rain days these week however it wasn't rainin today morning so gotta go soccer..i thought it was at the street soccer court therefore i didn't bring my boots so i gotta play with my street soccer shoes which is extra slippery on mud but lucky me i fell down once onli!!

then i went home bath n change and off i went to find my mum in her office to help her wit some work the ride was boring no one chatted with me...ya da ya dee we done some of e work then we went eat ermmm dinner or lunch? or a new name "dinch" a meal between lunch and dinner...
we went bugis and ate at "Terra" it was quite worth it i'll say for me 1 baked rice which has extremly good cheese and butter rice,the fish wasn't tad bad either, 1 mushroom soup, 1 cup of coffee(the normal 1 =.=)and lastly ice-cream!! i chose peppermint over strawberii ^^

i went giordano to buy a jeans ^^i met moi psl or ex psl senior(she graduated) "minru" as she was working there and she kindly gave me a 30% discount!!! rock on min ru.....aft tad as we were walking back to the bus stop i saw a girl i tink was cosplaying misamisa from deathnote as the clothing and hairstyle was e same, it looked quite cool though walking in bugis doing a cosplay...

lastly on e bus i heard an old uncle toking on phone say what.. they go commit sucide jumping down the building(i was laughing inside) then they keep choosing the place to jump -.- later he changed to jump down a river tying themself up so won't messy(what a good citizen!!) but what realli creeps me out were they sound somewhat serious so i don't realli wan to talk about it..

and now here i am talking about it X_X CREEPY!!!

yes i have some attitute problems some time most of the time for a few of you and who do you think caused that? i can't understand why i have put through with ur crap if i'm your friend?
and ask yourself some times issit not your attitute problems that causes mine? at least mine is much better then yours i don't bash and scold every thing around you i just keep silent i can still smile..as a comfort for those who wants to make me smile..

can't u just say sorry when u're in the wrong?i'll just accept it,i'm not so petty,so is your face more immportant or your friend?its just a word that comes from your heart is it so hard to say?or am i just some trash you throw away aft some time?calling me brother and doin otherwise?i rather not... i'm not so weak to get pissed off with you

yawns~ get lost, outta my sight it'll be fine aft a few day

i talk when i want i shut the hell up when no one wishes to listen..

i now know what it means when 1 finally changes,those who cannot withstand time

take it as nothing happen,i'm nobody to be at the start so i'm nobody to be angry wit people
neither am i that petty

heres a poem i thought of

Waiting Days

let a few day pass
notice when the last is here
tell me when a gust reaches
i'll be waiting till i rust
maybe it'll swap me away
when i'm all dust
or will i be still robust

when will you be here
when will you ever hear
will you ever lend me your ear?
till the waiting days are over
i'll always be wishing
for you to be in my arms one day

guess what i woke up...may the past few days be a dream

i don't know whats happening in this year nothin has gone the way i wanted, it sucks that nothing lucky has happened
all i had was to hear about some old ppl talking crap that wasn't true and beared with her ruinning my privacy by rammaging my things
next my mum a find woman has to go to an operation
next my class has all the teachers that either i dislike their attitute or their teaching methods sucks
next when i am talking no one listens but making it even worse everybody cuts off every single time i tried to talk ,no one takes me in regard and think me of somebody already..
next when i was talking to someone i longed to talk with and i was asked to go to sleep by my parents just becos i hav sch tml
yes i am grumpy
yes i am petty
i agree
sorry if i did anything wrong cos this year nothin has been going right
theres only one matter that keeps me sane...
sorry i wish to sleep now i never know if i'm going to wake up again?

at around 3 or 4 am i was awaken when i fell off my bed for the 1st time in the history of my life!! went tu eat breakfast at my uncle shop near the north vista sec sch on e way i was bitten by 3 ants on the bus...went temple...went china town eat jap food mmmm unagi bento...i didn't know china town sell so mani artistic things 1 chinatown point...drank coffee beans but somehow the caramel ice blend was not as sweet as last time then i went walk around the streets then i went to see the chinese character of my name it became pronounce as "ken ni" ken means to be something (which i don't understand) ni means nice girl(when did i became i girl?? or issit a unisex name?? i didn't know)..i've comfirmed that 80% ppl are forever not contented with things they have like my bro his unique curly hair yet he wants it straight like me now my mum is helpin him use the straightener cream to straighten his hair =.= someone said that i was cute and i beg to differ cos i am not so don't say these stuff that u know its not true i appreciate it though^^ =.= last but not least i just realize that my mum is going for an operation on the date 19 jan(i knew she was goin but didn't know when) hopefully it doesn't worsen or else she hav ta stay there for a wk.. let me pray and smile with a smile

tml has sch and sch sucks so gtg bb

Goddammit i just don't understand so what if she is my gramp? i can't really take it anymore..almost 10 years living with her has been hell..she just have to trouble ppl till the very end 99% of what she do is for she and herself i don't god dam care if she is old or what she is just outrageous she can wake up at 2 or 4 am cos she sleep so much in the day and just for her god dam pleasure she can wake my parents up just to see a friggin doctor complanin she don't feel well when u ask her where she not feeling well she can't tell you and when they are leaving i see the stupid smile on her face it proves it she just don't give a dam of other ppl feeling but her own.she cut my hair when i was slpin today i woke up in time but my hair has been cut my fringe.then when i done cooking my mee she turned the stove on again the next thing i know it was burnt i had to god dammit eat it cos i can't waste the food and when she cooks its either too oily which can flood the whole thing or too salty that you havce to eat 2 spoonful of rice on just a tiny bit of the saltish crap...i don't know why does such ppl supposingly close to us is doing all this shit..call me petty but i seriously can't take it all my family has become short tempered thanks to her..i'll die of blood vessel breaking someday

Gulity Consience

Sch hasn't been such a bad thing so far but today is definately not my day...

1st mistake - forgot bring chi wkbk(nvm as didn't use it today)
2nd mistake - brought 3b instead of 3a, forgot 4 A4 size notebk,caculator in maths
3rd mistake - for my own selfish purpose i didn't lend my friend the pencil box ended up standing while i was already standing i shuld hav lended him SORRY WAYNE ICHIMONJI!!!!..
4th mistake - someone accidently scattered his poker cards and i didn't help him, i was in a dilema whether to help or not

despite my resolution to become kinder -.-
i even took the wrong way when i was going home plus missing a stop resulting in a 15mins walk to the mrt station when it was rainin and spended a extra 40cents on e fare when i could make it home if i was smarter...i was somehow distracted when i saw this teenage lady i bet around 18-20 yrs old was smoking while chatting on the phone..smoking at such a young age??you shouldn't be even smoking

1. Smoking Degrades Your Health
2. Smoking Makes You Exhausted Easily
3. Smoking Makes You Bankcrupt

well tads all for now till i'll juz go wait for smses

Sch zzz

ok today sch starts my 1st day of wearing a long pants =.= felt gd...

our form teacher mr ho forced me for an haircut when i juz cut the day b4 i swear!!

then the teacher mr raymond cut half then call me go barber they think we students haf too much money to spend??
...
speechless..
...
then tad nerdy ho is so boring that everyone just stared at him with a blank face...he kept repeating the same points in onli diff kind of phrase...

maybe gonna swim later..

gtg bb