The year's final day started with a chime from the clock, indicating the start of the eve and soon the end of the year.

I was alive on the computer then, Engaging in a struggle with the assignment that i hadn't got a clue with, then with a last spurt of my whatever sense i had left i accomplish that grueling task, then i was online with ShengYao on gunbound trying to shoot the problems off the mind and bombarding it on some fantasy ground.. then the realization that it was really late and i hadn't had the mind to fully convert myself into an owl arrived. thus i head off to bed..

However the mind doesn't gave any heart to give the body any rest, as the tug of war continued on, slowly my remainder consciousness begain to blurred up, i couldn't help but mix the elements of gunbound into my efforts to sleep, this however funny and perhaps hilarious but the process of intoxicating, i woke up every few minutes with a state of half consciouness, rentlessly reminding the remainder of me to keep the virtual and reality apart.. however i was too lost to win the battle... then i finally couldn't stand it and woke up fully at 7am, thankfully for the chimes of the clock to decide the decision..

Then time passes quickly and i finally pushed myself to sleep peacefully at 10am, slept soundly till 1pm where i hurriedly rushed out to school to submit Amanda's and my assignments as well as to return library books or else i would be sorrowfully late for my later plans, however the day wasn't showing me any tinge of kindness towards me, everything there was closed, even the drop off book for the library was locked.. so a fruitless travel there...

Reached Kovan to borrow 2 bikes from my cousin in order to enable Izzuddin and Anthony to tag along for the exhaustive cycling that lies ahead of that point of time, i carried 2 bikes down 12 storeys with a fear of the bikes being stolen.. And then towards Serangoon for the rendezvous...

And with 4 literal hours of Breath-Taking, we finally arrived at Changi Village where we quickly dug into our food like wilderness wolves preying on their first source of energy. ( i hadn't ate all day, and probably yesterday too for some reason )
Gobbles
Gobbles
I'm a GOOFY GOOBER

then took 3 hours of muscle contraction to arrived back at serangoon after yelling "HAPPY NEW YEAR" all the way from Kovan...Then once again heading off with Sheng Yao to Bishan with the mind to prawn, Anthony however chose to take a bus and walk there due to the phobia of cycling any more after that killer 7 hours. So SY and i travelled another 30minutes to bishan but to find out that the prawning area was condensively filled with compressions of people there, so we decided to wait it out after calling Anthony to head home first as there were minimum chances of actually getting those people to leave..
Chit
Chat
ChitChatted till 2am

and it wasn't getting any better so then the journey's of the start of the end to the start of the start ended.. Curtains closed with a sight of coincidental bumped into Amanda on the way back..

Thats how the 2010 Eve Went..

Resolutions?
Never really made any that i would remember long enough to keep...
perhaps to be a greater homo-sapien
and perhaps to live an actual life
and lastly to sleep early to wake up early..

I thought of you though i forced myself not to
but then you appeared of no where
you walked my path, my way
but i was so stupidly stumped there..
Sorry you...
Sorry me..
Let us both down

Kenny,ShengYao,YanHua,Izzuddin is reported to have stormed the airport repeatedly during the period of 11pm(26/12/09) to 8am(27/12/09), repeatedly going through all 3 terminals by the shutter bus and sky train...They are commonly seen in toilets for some reason, perhaps they were searching for the accomplice of this guy..."MR.POOBALAN"


Then they as usual used up papers and crayons in the free section..

After burgers at macdonald, they headed to starbucks to have Ventis of drinks that they regreted after that since it was too throat hurting and then choky as they play their game of life there..

Before they really head home it was already very late...Or Early i should say..And very sleepy after their breakfast of egg/bread/more coffee at Kopitiam which they headed to after spending loads of unrequested time of trying to watch plane fly and land at the viewing gallery through the help of Trolleys..

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have plans to Cycle to Changi runway again

have plans to go prawning in order to find the blue tailed prawn to win a free rod

have plans to go sentosa

have plans to play mahjong

have plans to go out and eat

have plans to eat sleep and play somemore

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P.S (Male backup dancers in Singapore Idol Looks Kinda Gay...Sorry)

I don't know what i've done wrong

I only tried to try..

Then why are you not replying me

Where was the line at first?

Kenny...Remember you've thrown everything away...

BTW http://www.urbandictonary.com/ says i'm the foreskin of an uncircumsied penis...

and i'm pround of myself for helping Izzu decode the poem "To His Coy Mistress" www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/16076

Christmas gathering at Ponggol.. 13minutes + 20balloons = breathless..

And what else to do with balloons than to tie on your bag and run so it flies behind you =D

Then we went exploring in an abandoned house that used to be occupied by some angmos

Presents -> 1 Nautica wallet, 1 Converse wallet, 1 Rebok tee, 1 Banana Republic colgone, 1 Toothbrush holder..

i used to have not enough wallet, now it appears i have enough wallet till i last over Uni..

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The gigantic prawn was captured on about 4am when i cycled to meet ShengYao and John for prawning till 7am..

Come to think of it, i hadn't made any christmas wish before, but looking at things now, i've given up on wishing pretty must... So much for the Wisher..

Happy Red and Green Day where a fat guy in a suit runs about and intruding homes through the chimney and then proceeding to leave a mysterious package in your home before getting out somehow and riding off with his flying reindeer that is probably throughly exhausted from pulling a sleigh which has a giant red bag filled with those mysterious package and a big fat intruder dressed in a suit chanting HOHOHO as he goes...

=D

Hang out day with bro and cousins.. Walkabouts in Ion -> Kinokuniya at Taka -> Dinnering at Marche at 313 @ somerset -> Lan gaming for 3 hours -> home

(Going to get a Tarot Deck soon)

So I started My Balloon ObsessionMy Bailout Oppression

Because every single time i chose to wait like this..
It always ended like this..

Probably just letting go of the hopes, and return to the one day by a time policy.

Its always like this, people i meet usually talks with me for a few days and goes missing then disappear

Can't do nothing bout it, then don't do nothing about it, or so i assume even if it makes an ass out of me and you

I don't need you all the time, i just need you when you can.. if you aren't sometimes, i'll simply wait for other times to come.. if you need someone, i'll be that someone.. if you'll need anything i want to be that anything.

always in the sidelines...while the rest gets the spotlight.. they go and come back with those momentary frowns telling us how hard is it out there, then they go back where they came from.. No I've tried so hard to stay here, warming the bench. You who don't try as hard frays away, narcissism takes over.


i don't know what of you that made me stare
i don't know what of you that made me flutter
i don't know what of you that made me want to be the best
i don't know what of you that made me want to be your best
i don't know what of you that made me ache
i don't know what of you that made me long
i don't know what but it took me over and converted me
but you could say the same thing to the other him

i might not be the best offer
i might not be your good offer
but i hope i'm still an offer to you

You might never know this because i'm too afraid
i'm fearful that you would just disappear
its really a good thing that i'm good at holding back

its the "i like you but i can't like you" story once again
goodbye loser, hello loserX2

Perhaps i shouldn't from the start
Perhaps it was a mistake to begin
Perhaps i had taken my own life
Perhaps it never had been mine
Perhaps i tried to run away
Perhaps it never supposed to be here
Perhaps i should have thought
Perhaps it never needed any
Perhaps i flawed and failed
Perhaps it was meant to be
Perhaps i never needed to choose
Perhaps it knew me all along
Perhaps i hadn't had to fight
Perhaps it couldn't be mine anyway
Perhaps i should just die off
Perhaps i shouldn't care
Perhaps i should let go
Perhaps i should leave

just go curl up somewhere kenny, you're not the hero in any fairytale. Theres no space for your rationality, no place for your indecisiveness, no area for your cautiousness, no way for your cowardice.

2 Movies are up today, one with Pam and her sis and the second one with mum and bro..

Princess and the frog~

well its kind of a typical disney kind of show, luxuary magic, sweet melting happy endings, and destroyed obnoxious villians.Thus predictable... I guess a fairytale isn't too bad once awhile.. Welll its pretty watchable i guess 2.8/5?

Planet 51,

No doubt a cartoonish show, comedy and such, quite funny at times i would say, but its also quite predictable and kinda luck filled like every cartoon... not a bad movie either.. watchable too maybe 2.8/5?
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I realized, i'm becoming more and more unwilling to talk...more and more unwilling to share...more and more unwilling to explain...more and more willing to close up..

All the lovey dovey..

that my eyes had learnt to shun

my hearts literally in two pieces

fighting each side to reach a decision

Each with their own logic to stand

Theres always the 2 decisions to choose

2 risks to take, 2 chances to advance

I really don't know.. I'm a screw up

I was thinking of getting the pictures before i actually post something that i've done, but it appears that i've gradually drop the pieces of information, theres a hole in my brain maybe, leaking out memories like a filled bottle with holes.

Okay, so i've found a really great museum, its called "8Q SAM".. i'm reluctant to share this but seeing that my blog doesn't have much reader i think the secludeness of the museum can be protected... its a place of beautiful instillation art, really abstract and really pretty.. the uniqueness of this place is really quite over the top... nopes its not really just pretty paintings, props and set ups and much more stuff.. you'll be amazed..

Narnia~~

Paper Walkway

The black and white room

Watched New Moon with ShengYao,Joel,Yanhua.. the other day, it felt really uncomfortable as i felt that new moon was kinda a girl movie, yet 4 grown guys went in... not being sexist here but just weird.. anyway the movie was kinda a bore, well but didn't really expect anything outta it... I didn't had the guts to yell "Cedric!!" and "Sharkboy!!" afterall..

I'm becoming much more of a jerk i want to be

i feel like i'm leaving you, not like i have commitments

but the problem is, it didn't fade off

i feel it fluttering, so as though stolen.. I don't know what i want anymore..

Finally the hellish period struck over, surviving on stress along with lack of sleep in a foot race to accompish every assignment just chucked to us mercilessly..
It hadn't fully ended but at least the hell period is gone for now...

Cut my hair thin and shorter.. and i'm really still tired from all those fatigues and i believe i'm getting sick..

See ya Shai, thanks alot

i've been seriously busy
extremely exhuasted
really faigue-cal
the assignments just came rushing out of no where, each stacked on each other, just collected themselves and burried me underneathe with a tilt of hope glistning every now and then.

i've been really tired
survived on about 4hours per day for the past week, i go to school everyday with a zombie like self,dragging the feet with eyes wanting to close so badly yet they couldn't lullaby me to sleep... i hadn't been doing leisure things for a long time now, i'm finding everything i used to have is breaking out, just drifting away..

People has been pushing up their ideal thoughts and views upon me, mainly family, you might think i'm not being sociable, yes i don't deny it but sometimes do you look and ask in an alternative way than you always do? you demand and you request then you push your opinions on me, why hadn't you see yet.. so far i have a reason for everything, you asked me not to promise what i couldn't acheieve but when i don't want to promise, you blame that i don't have the sincerity... the reason why i stay up?? beside the atmosphere of inner peace to really remember myself and not get sucked into your world of opinions, the only way to keep myself, face it already i have my own reason that i don't speak of...
and i don't speak of its because i don't want to, how would you know if i don't speak? sometimes you don't have to, sometimes its just enough to understand i have my reason..

i sometimes like to close my eyes and imagine the calm scenery of a green short grass wavering admist the cool winds, along with the rustling of the lone tree standing tall at the side of this field all covered by a peaceful stretch of baby blue sky with cluttering of white clouds and then i shall walk towards the tree and lie in its shade, just close my eyes again and imagine that nothing was real anymore, i don't have to open my eyes again..

If you hadn't realize yet
than maybe i'm just too different for you