Yesterdae went out almost e whole dae
woke up after having a nightmare and at 7++ in e morning went to mac with richard,shengyao,kaiyuan,yuanyou...then eat le went school for maths,couldn't find physics teacher then went off to play soccer with brother n our friends...till around 1
we went home then at 2++ went temple at "Si Ma Lu" before going bugis with my parents but my bro went out with his friends AGAIN..then went eat at Terra the 2nd time..tried the japanese curry beef after being told tad japanese curry was more sweet then hot..BUT the curry i at was dam hot for me so i changed with my mothers lamb steak half.. FINALLY I GOT MY DARK COLOURED SHOES!!! from converse though it was expensive 69.90 so dun think gonna buy anything expensive in e near future...

TODAY
was a very hot day..so somehow i dono why i woke up at 2.30.. i was somehow captivated by a dream i couldn't remember much about it but i think i cried alot in my sleep..as i woke up my face felt like u know after letting yourr tears dry on your face,yup it felt like tad and my eyes were sore..other than that nothing much else happened

In The End i'm just another useless person...useless to the core..recently

the game warcraft that i'm most good at...
i now sucks at it
the sports soccer i'm better at...
i now sucks at it
the jokes that i crack
is colder than anything
the conversation i made
i hardly make one
the attitude of mine
getting worse
my intrest n motivation to study
getting restless


why is this happening now??
i'm really useless
i've no choice but to think
the god i don't believe in
has taken everything away from me..
as i've been living too good for my past 14 years
till i'm reduce to nothing
although i'm just a step away..

What possibility could i do?
What fate lies at the end of the tunnel?
Maybe Nothing?

iIts e 3rd month now..93th days has past..how long more would i have to wait?..haven't heard anything nor saw..

sometimes the day when you smile,and laugh the most..its a sad day for you..somehow you can't show it...you don't want to show it..so you'll smile n laugh..trying to behave the same way..but the insides is being eaten up...

waiting..and waiting....for theses slow days to past..
forever forever

went mac with,wayne,maytze,and her friend(forgot e name),yuanyou juz now..wanted celebrate syf but alot ppl came which is too much to name..i accidently spilled milo on myself T.T so sad..when i went to the toilet to wash i came back the person said he changed a milo for me ^^ so gd ^^then we went play basketball till 8++ aft calling trev down too..

Didn't Have Anything To Post Recently...Lifes normal...

To Dancers taking part in SYF

GOOD LUCK!!!
Get a gold!!


It'll be 3 Months tml..

Went PS today to walk walk with my mum before going my fav. restraunt Tao's!!! u go eat once you'll know why its my fav....
So i eat till i almost vomitted...must exercise!!!
before
once again walk at ps..

then at serangoon MRT..I saw Meg from project superstar..the second time actually..once at e mediacorp once today...

Sometimes i feel like i'm going to die..yes i'm afraid..but however later on i think..dying may be escaping..it seems so easy to die..to end everything,you can just for once throw everything every detail away..why don't i just die?it'll be easier for me anyway..so what if i die?the worlds still moving on...its just that living is taking up alot of energy..someday you'll die too,why don't end it earlier?

No matter how much i wish,i try,i do to savage things,she won't understand..but i can't give up,i can't forget...but days passes like forever..yet everyday i live in hope..yet i becomes disappointed everyday..

life has up and downs

but nobody stated that there is lesser ups...

SYF come n went..i felt we did real great,much much better than the rehersals..so we reached sch around 3 and some of us wanted to go the restraunt at serangon commonly known as "Tiamo"

so we were on e way till i say some of my friends playing soccer then i decided to join them n some sort of abandoned my other friends T.T sorri bout tad T.T

then we played n played till i accidently kicked the ball to hard n flew outside to e road then i was waiting when my friend keeps on rushing me as they said that a car was commin, naturally i faster rushed without thinking,next ting i know was a car blasting its horn on me...when i went picked up the ball after the shock one auntie asked me my school...I"M SO Dead!!!!!

i'm guilty,yet innocent
i'm shameless,yet shameful
i'm helpless,yet abandoned
i'm hateless,yet angers
i'm someone,yet no one

Went tuu mediacorp today for viewing of Music In The Air which will be shown on tv on 10th of may but still i'm just a member of e audience...

before we went to school to go to mediacorp me,n some of my friends met up with a teacher and she treated us macdonalds ^^
after tad as she had to park her car we followed her home and her family was so friendly..aft tad we finally went to mediacorp by an bus booked by school or mediacorp..it was kinda tiring even watching

the celebrity guests were from project superstar and guess what their singing totally rocks,diffrent from tv,much much better...


i figured out yesterday too as my bro says i'm very moody,perherps cos i'm thinking too much and i've realize i don't have much topic to talk to family or friends so i'm really kinda depress but maybe its a stage??! ^^ smiles i guess ^^

Went to watch Mr.Bean Holidays!!!well it wasn't as gd as i expected but still watchable..i'm still obviously addicted to coffee bean ice blend...when we were going to go home we saw the bus leaving from bishan's bus interchange, so me n my friend ran to the next bus stop..and guess what,god's on our side it stopped at both traffic light and in e end we boarded tad bus ^^

Today was a little bit of drag...we played soccer on e muddy field getting my classmates more pissed off then we already are..for some reason,maybe morning blues?
then i went to drama at ACS(barker road) for our rehersal for SYF next week tuesdayso we went till around 8 before reaching sch and now comfortably in my chair after dinner and bathing ^^
One thing seriously cheered me up,when 1 of my friend said he is going to quit smoking and now he only left one cos he give the others away,but i finally did something
i crushed his cigrattee lol ^^

then i'll juz sign off here