If only i could do something....and i hoped i didn't made it worse...sometime i wish i was smart..so i could ease the sadness.and bring smiles to your face



Nothing To Be Afraid Of

You don't have to be afraid
i'll take away what it comes
for it had brought me here fate
to finish what it left undone
So theres nothing to be afraid of

Let me stand in front
and for you i'll defend
wouldn't move from this ground
i wouldn't just let it end
So theres nothing to be afraid of

I'll bring your devils down
and let the angels in
return the rightfull crown
and nothing would be left in vain
So theres nothing to be afraid of

Believe me, i'll make it true
Do not feel guilty for its blue
i'll surely make things glue
through time i would make things heal
So theres nothing to be afraid of

Come to me, take the hand
i'll bring you out on a whole new ride
i'll straighten anything you bent
from me please don't hide
Theres nothing to be afraid of

Together we'll face the truth
admist everything of the lies
we'll dance together to the groove
and sweep it away your cries
So theres nothing to be afraid of

Theres nothing to be afraid of
If you'll take me along
Theres nothing to be afraid of
i'll take away your fears
i'll take away your tears
Theres nothing to be afraid of
If you'll take me along

PHYSICS TODAY!! kinda easy but theres also chances that i'll mess up once again, its always the easy papers that i mess up lol...

Izzu was real good to me today.. treating me to a "spider web( a bread)" and a bottle of drink...lol he claimed that he felt guilty about always making me wait for him HAHAHA!!

Okay back to business, met up with some drama members today, discuss about things like the performance thats upcoming or the future of Drama.. till its about 6pm then went home..


STILL VERY SORE BOUT MISSING 3 IMPORTANT THINGS WHILE I GO TO NY..
- Prom Night
- Performance For A Minister
- China Trip
sighhs, nothings perfect..

For The Want Of All
It'll Be You Who Fall...

The Inside SunFlower

A Window i stared out upon
for a small box its my vision
i was so sure to have sworn
that theres nothing able to reason

Everything i have seen
was nothing but a dream
for a lay here all day
and watch the sky gets grey

Wondered why no one was here
lonely and alone i wither
as the moon eats my heart with fear
closed my eyes i riddled

The outside always behold
beheld a difference in the inner cold
i alone wanted to leave
just to lessen my own grieve

That lacking feel of warmth
basking in the outside bath
soaking the touch of laughs
from the morning graphs

Yet never was i out
never able to enjoy
never able to follow
never able to feel
the presence of my loved sun

for i'll always be an inside flower
a sunflower always colder

Went to school to help in "questioning" the teacher, about the China trip that i can't go... sigghsss.. learnt that there'll be a performace of a minister level(MinisterOfFinance is coming to watch)on the 14th.. but i'm leaving for NY at 13th.. i'm missing out on stuff yet i'll be able to go NY, i'm smilling halfways and disappointed in the other half..

What to do!!!! What to do!!!! What to do!!!!




Sometimes when you're a tree that fails to hold,

you'll have to become the wind that blows away

I hesitated, pondering over it
couldn't concerntrate, too engrossed
to you it might just seem abit
but it made me so hardly tossed

No words were right to say
for fear consumed me that momment
yet my message, i want to convey
though the outcome is easily bent

It finally sounds like how it shouldn't
but it was too late to retrieve
a glass broken, a fire burnt
a meaning hard to believe

Remorse, I urge to explain
but yet again consumed by fear
so let the shadows rain
and let the wall lend the ear

English Paper yesterday murdered me till i was chopped into pieces... Don't really want to remember...Ended at about 6:40pm... Went out at about 11pm+ to kinda meet up with May and Carol, we just kind of chatted through the dawn till it was 5+am...

Well i got some requirements setted, needs more eyebrow,straight teeth, more hair
lol

And lastly, there was a fire(kind of small but lots of black smoke) at a nearby block, i couldn't believe it as people, just looked and walked away,it kinda burnt the whole celling pitch black yet noone bothers..just look and walk away..

so i thought i'll act brave and go to the nearby fire post to inform them, and yeaaa they checked it out and i went home, sometimes i'm not that KPO!!

its small actually



Theres no answer except for your reply

Well after being pressed by ANTHONY ANG JUN MING, that 蚂蚁, i decided to blog about today's chemistry test ( to his dismay )

The Big O has already Started,
Chemistry is the 1st written paper
which is today
20/10/08

Reached school early again to study with the same batch of people, still I really can't start studying, i have got the motivation but just as much distractions to bother me, i should really purify my soul, meditate away the devil.

The chemistry started at 2:30pm, i knew almost all the question but i just don't know the answers...Nahhh just kidding, i have the knowledge but i did a few mistake which i realized later on..Most annoyingly was the section B, I KNEW THE )(!@&$)@!(*$& FORMULAR BUT JUST WROTE DOWN ANOTHER ONE TO SAVE TIME BUT WHEN I WENT BACK TO CHANGE.... The cheif examiner said, please put down your pants(pens)...I went blank..

sadly to my dismay, at least 8marks has been fished away... But Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life!!!

Orewa English no Gambarimas

Woke Up early morning to collect my passport at the ICA with my mum and my bro, then went to the have an light breakfast of Wanton mee which kinda was 0-_-0... then saw Kim Ng ( 钟情 ) was that how u write?? she was kinda friendly and smiled at us, Yet she was looking real tired even though she must play another lively character in 3 2 1...Guess an actor's life aren't that easy too...


Carrying on, we went to Marina Square at about 10.30am, where most of the shops were still closed, thus we couldn't begin our kind of shopping spree... THUS, went to settle down at the Coffee's Club to have another bout of breakfast of coffee and desert ( its expensive 0.0, just a coffee and a desert each(3 person) = to $40+ ) so first on my list was of course a Tiramisu flavoured one, thus the "Iced Tiramisu Latte"

( the guy was 0.o and said i was a minor but its alright since it has low alcohol content )

I dislike beverage such as wine and beer and liquor or anything along the lines But Tiramisu attracts me even if theres liquor content.. I wonder why o.o??

Carrying on, i ordered an "Apple Crumble"


Since my mum already stole my "Fruity Tiramisu"


But the fruits were ALL SOUR!! till it kinda spoiled both the dessert's taste

the one who is really delectable through out was my brother's " Muddy Mud(pie) "


After that we started our shopping, actually was suppose to buy a jacket and a black tie only but didn't exactly get a jacket but got a vest like jacket ($48)( still getting a jacket ) + a black and white tie ($18 and $10) + a black coloured jeans ($59) but as usual the lady business was difficult with my mum's barganning, as the black tie and the vest ($18 + $48) was already $66 but she managed to push it till its $60... i was suprised too... $6 is alot...After i was done my mum got her formal dinner dress at Zara(aren't much choices she claims).. THEN Went to Sakae Sushi to have lunch..

The branch at Marina Square was really with much more choices, more delectable..
like my Ichiban Daisuki Sushi, "Tamango Sushi"


but my brother had 5 plates on the table when we just sat down, didn't even eat yet but he just took 5 plates right out the tray..
so within 5 minutes it looked like this



just 5mins.. then ordered stuff like ramen and niku to share among 3 of us.. and later on when we finally finished it looked like.....

Yes i piled it according to colour...couldn't help it..just for the fun of it


And the bill was also kind of high,

it was a day where i think i spent the most out of my mum's wallet, but i don't do it often so my mum says its alright V^^

and that concludes my day...Though hands were tired and legs were tired but we reached home at 4+, surviving..



On another random note
{ I STILL MISS MY PROM!! sobs sobs...T.T... } but of course theres other things that cheers me up too XP

Went off to MarinaSquare with MT and LY, to kinda do some kind of mission..went to walk around, kinda window shopped abit and had lunner( lunch + dinner ) there at pizza hut, never knew LY was so talented in laughing till she cries XD...

On another Random Note: if you're feeling down, or feeling bored, or just want to smile and laugh regardless of others calling you crazy

PLEASE JUST GO WATCH GAKI NO TSUKAI( the do not laugh episodes) ITS SUPERBLY FUNNY..

Heres a link
http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-209130/Gaki-no-Tsukai-Do-Not-Laugh-In-A-Spring-Inn-Part-1.html


It Is Hillarious!! I assure you...

I Laughed till my family thought i went bonkers and called the Mental Hospital.. and i laughed till my sides exploded ( it might be long but very worth it )

Maybe because i'm in a fabulous mood?

Couldn't smile more yesterday... =), i guess ther'll be even more days like that soon, i guess ^^

Its Another Rhapasody

Why does some people's word has absolutely no inspirational motivation,
Yet just a single word of another, sparks a flame...

I don't really think i can say i'm studying hard, but definately harder than before...

Another Chance..I'll Try..I'll Fail..I'll Wail..I'll Take..Another Chance



Another Chance To Make A Memory Akin To This Playground Of Memories


Just On A Random Note
Prata = Pata = Sparta = Human = Cannibalism
So Stop Eating Prata!!

10/10/08 Friday
Went to school early in the morning six o clock...Not, went there at around 8am till about 1pm.. tried to drag anthony,shengyao,yanhua to go with me to marinasquare and orchard to collect stuff but failed utterly...
Anyway went with anthony to Hougang, but its a futile trip...as we failed to collect his JayChou disc.

Met up with my brother and took the train to orchard's Paragon to collect my mother's stuff..then went to Marina Square to have dinner, at the Ministry Of Food Japaese Casual Dinning

, had Miso Charsiew Ramen

and a Strawberry Shake 草莓腰, lol

Then Carried on to claim my Gelare Ice Cream Cake!!!




after that, went home then went mac to study with Suriani,MayTze,LiYing..
and went back only at 4am...

Well its a long day...

..Feeling Alone..When I'm Alone...

Those who i once poured my sorrow to, are slowly drawing further..The suffocation of keeping to myself, are slowly returning..

Dominated By You In Every Espect...Even In Dreams

I know, its not the last day to see my school mates but the urge of being back in class is strong, why its always like this?? before it ends, nobody feel anything, but after, all the feelings gush in like a tsunami, swallowing all your vision..

well i'll definately miss every single person that has rubbed their path against mine..

ahhh..Vivian with her big specs...Ferania with her random naggings...LiYing with her ability to get sucked into my lameness...RuoLin with her weird weird talks...Carol with her shouting and eye rollings...Xinyi with her ever so smiley attitude...Suriani with her superb involvement techniques...Suzanne with her attitude towards me...MayTze with her sian-ness/boredom sickness...Shirly with her sleeping and borrowing HP habits...Anthony with his sweets and chocolates and chips and everything nice...ZiHao with his apple polishing...ZhanHwee with his stuckup face...YanHua with his sound effects...ShengYao with his super bizzare laughter...Richard with all his sudden encouragement and whackings...Izzuddin with all his hilarious everything...YiXian with his MOOLLLEEE and "capabilities"...YuanYou with his goping everything and refusing everything i ask him...Wayne with his bochup power...PeiDian with his ah blur attitude...


ahh not forgeting the drama people too..

Carol with all the arguments...Izzuddin with all the environment enhancer...JiaXin with her skill to nag like a mother and her great photography skills...ChunHua with her half sotong half serious look...Sukiyo with her kia-kia-ness...HungSiang with all his easily mistaken words and actions...Kimberly with her "a problem with kenny" behaviour...BinHao with the "Orh" and unexpected response...Ariena with the absolutely random personality...Nicole with the name calling preference and ability to remember the word milk...Sarah with the absolutely negative yet somewhat positive attitude...

yeaa there are many others too..but its never going to end like this lol
so i guess i'll end here..

I wouldn't call this a poem, but it kinda seems slightly like it to pass, but anyway, kinda my feelings recently..

I couldn't lend my hand
I couldn't lend my shoulder
I couldn't lend my strength
Just because i ain't close enough.
You've had a number
I've only seen two
But its excruciating enough
Just to see you leave.
Each time a chance arise
I blindedly followed
Unknowingly to trip again
Into the heartbrokeness.
You don't talk to me
You don't smile to me
You don't cry to me
Just because i ain't close enough.
As i see you go
Into the arms of others
A sense of uselessness overcome
For a period unmeasureable by time.
Your seperation had a weird effect
Of having me snickering and tearing
Raising me in the highest hopes.
Never wanted to believe the truth
But i know i couldn't be
Be the me you wanted to be
So i usually end up in tears.
You and I are never together
You and I are never forever
You and I are never starting
Just because i ain't close enough...

The Place Of Our Grad.

I'm now an official graduate of Peicai Secondary School..

Friday was our graduation day...it was held in the Dance and Drama Room, it started with a video of our past days in school followed by some encouragement from some teachers, then followed by an interesting speech from our principal and vice principal..and followed by speeches from another batch of teachers and the student body...It was kind of feelings which were mixed with disappointment, happiness, sadness, eagerness...And all of us were undoubtably high

Well we 6 guys( Kenny,Izzuddin,Anthony,PeiDian,ShengYao,YanHua ) Acted as a backdrop for the girls..


Suriani with her one finger on the cheek post

The Horrifying RuoLin

XinYi With Her Twisting Pose

MayTze is still e best, don't have any speical needs

Model: Kenny and Liying


4E Guys


4E Girls


4E!!


The Encouragement From Our Juniors


The Best Teacher In The World Award Goes To MR HO

Tml is my official Graduation from Peicai Secondary School.. for some reason, the secondary 1 days were like still fresh in my memories but still it feels like very long since i've came to peicai..

Reckoning my last minute as the class would be actually dispersed...

Ahhh i'm still afraid of Endings.. but life moves on and never stops for a single individual..

Maybe the cause of our highness in class were because of tomorrow....
So we're all probably gonna wear our painted skins and walk around tomorrow

Well theres no doubt these people would be etched into the deepest recess of my mind.





Of course our absent on the photo taking monintress: Hong Liying

Well 3 Happy events today..

Happy Children Day Kids!!, Happy Hari Raya Muslims!!, Happy Birthday Suen!!

ahh regardless that i'm overgrown, we went out to celebrate Children Day today, we as in me,ShengYao,Anthony,YanHua..

went to amk hub in hopes of catching the Painted Skin there but due to the 3 )(!&$(!@&$)!(*$)@!$*)(@*$)(!@&$)& person who arrived 1hr late from the meeting time, the tickets was sold out, so went to buy tickets at the Jubilee Cinema...

Then we happily walked back to AMK hub to get our food but after 40mins of wandering around, we are still lost of what we are going to have in order to please our grouchy stomach, due the long queues and the expensive price, we were practically out of options, thus we settled for a simple fare of food court which wasn't the least simple...Its EXPENSIVE

Then after filling up our bellies, we advanced to the NTUC to get our tidbits which we were going to sneak inside in just a few mins after, but amazingly that alone took a long time due to the confusing varieties which we were unable to choose from.. finally settled for Ruffles and Lays..

After purchasing all those "necessaries" I Faced with an major tribulation... I LOST THE MOVIE TICKETS WORTH : $48.. we went back to the food court but to no avail.. worriedly we staggered to the cinema, i was picturing my other $48 flying away, to repay them....I was really in a loss of words then as i didn't take anything out of my pocket, how was it gone?? the thoughts resonated around my mind..

But Miracles, Cure, Solution eventually came as the guy was kind enough to let us in as they have remembered my handsome face XP just kidding XP though we sat in a different position which was the 3rd row from the screen but it was already good enough... I really thanked the staff alot... A Blessing in Disguise??..

Well i decided to count my blessings then rant about the misfortune of mine...
but the day was enjoyable.. the movie was touching, was good, was ok but have many spaces to develop which they did not make, Painted Skin.. besides the demon who has a fake skin which is painted.. has another meaning actually, its another side of everybody which is on the appearence, you may appear good but you're bad, you might appear bad but you're good...

But anyway, all in all, in conclusion.. it was a fairly good romance story which was touching...

Don't expect much of the fighting but yea, enjoy the romance, enjoy the things one would do for one's love.. i'll rate it 3.5/5 i guess, it don't leave you lingering on the movie, perhaps because there isn't much deep meaning which gives room for imagination??

well i've had a good children day and i'll go back to be a teen tml.. a typical teenager studying for his Os