Opportunities

I don't know exactly the reason why opportunities don't always come knock on the door even if we stay to watch, we complain and blabber on the lack of opportunities but while we're doing that, very often it comes knocking but you won't hear it.. And when you finally open it, you've already blown your steam, take a good look at it, perhaps spend a few days with it, it settles in but then you start to expect more on the increase, you no longer satisfy even when now the opportunity comes without you calling for it, it stands right in front of your door but no..

You don't take it for some reason or other, be it troublesome, uncomfortable or just didn't feel like it.. Okay, thats a legitimate reason, but then a few days or weeks or months or years drag by, you'll find yourself thinking what would happen if you've embraced that opportunity, how much better or at least changed would you current be?

Its often true that it doesn't come knocking twice, i mean when you get rejected throughly, been ignored and treated like nothing, you would usually be turned off and move on... So then you sit there while never knowing what should and shouldn't have been done..

I just don't understand why is it hard to just grab the chances as they come by, a chance that offers you comfort and possible advancement from the pitied stage we currently reside in, its not all that difficult if you think about it, yes you have previous commitments that still clings on to youm perhaps even abundance of troubles.. but its previous, regardless of the timelength, its still previous matters, it might still affect but, the fact is that moving on still has to be implemented..

You claim to want to forget, you claim to want to let it go, you claim to how you want it to be, but when it comes, you stubbornly root yourself to your own naivety to the pessimistic side of yourself and the innocent belief of how time is needed. You often fail to consider, this new opportunity that appears, might help you more than you think, if you grab every single one of it, with time gradually it fades the the background with the new layerings on top...

I'm not trying to judge, I'm not trying to accuse, I'm not trying to say you must but i'm just telling you, it'll always be a better alternative to rather sticking yourself to the pathetic misery that you endoused in..

Move on when you have the chance....Give it some faith..

I just don't understand why others wouldn't take any chance when it comes to help, they have a chance to shed their pasts, they have a chance to start anew..

But what do i have? I got none even close by, i have no help trying to push me through, I see no way of even dig myself another path to go to, I'm always sinking and looking up in the fantasy that i create to somehow ease the escape, but in the end all i see is towering blocks casting their shadows upon me...

I just need someone to push me though.. But i'm too afraid to ask...