Uncanny Sight
Doesn't how it seems weirdly horrifying that you might somehow be alone, walking as a single without a happy thought of someone else, without anyone that you might be able to talk to while you're feeling so crushingly flat while dragging your feet to your destination which you never seem to make it through wishing that you were in a different situation. Its time like this you start to suspect your own abilities and character which apparently is failing its job.

It was just a chance an opportunity that you see seemingly how everyone had theirs but it seems like the cupid had turned stupid and left you out. It wasn't fair. You gave all your soul and sold promises and exchanges for a return redemption that you never received. Was it alright for it to continue being this way, knowing how you'll soon to raise both hands in defeat? Was it really alright for you to stay denial of the rotted hope you've been clinging on for so long? Was it really alright for you to fight on searching and taking chances that leave you battered behind?

And what if this thing they called love so easily never really ceased to exist? Its almost assured how it might turn into a negativity breaking solution.
Its a complete recipe for disaster. It adds on a hopeful heart, alot of mental strength, selective amount of cash, most of your friends and probably a few buckets of well unspent time. And for the preparation, just crushed everything up and mix them all together with some unwilling tears and pain before pouring them into a garbage bag before serving.

I don't know about it anymore, its probably cynical and like typical of my age perhaps but what was the point of all these, Yes, i really want and maybe need another half of mine to fill in for everything i would really want to do for her. But after these years of being beat down after and after, i don't know if i can believe in this so called love anymore, i'm convinced of its non-existence and i'm just assured how things won't even work out. Its negative but after all these years of trying and never even reach a glimpse of it, its just too much, its too over the top, i've been saying i'm tired of it, i've been holding it back, brushing it off like it doesn't matter like everyone else but honestly what else is there left to see when i've got nothing else to give. I really have nothing more. I'm just an agonised deranged remains of the past. I'm sorry, i can't believe anymore.
Even the non-believers get burnt.. I was at the exact location, looking at the exact tree, being at the exact time, staying with the exact people, being on the exact date but only 5 years after. We were both young, so young that we both made mistakes, you thought you liked me or perhaps you wanted to hook me. And i made the mistake of not hooking you and hold you tight or perhaps saying no and never started this. Its too different now, I can't forget you... I fight to be in a relationship so much so i'll have the chance to kick you off my mind because its been 5 years and no, you still reside there. But you will never take me now.