These pictures are representing the accomplishment over the few months, spending over 100hours working my butt out, slogging till my temperement changes like the weather, without warning..Yt it ain't any good, signs..





BTW, heres something from one of our Artist in class..Peidian 配电费


And since this is mostly a photo post lets see some sceneries from my school,from the window seat that i work,laugh,play,study in...








So stare up to nature
so everlasting, everchanging
unexpected and oriented
Questions filled,the questionable nature
answers lies around yet unfound
Mystery,its never history..

Well...Things are slightly brightening up, currently my life is in the motion of the ups.. Our life is like a wave, having its up and down, sometimes reaching the peak(crest) and sometimes the bottom(trough)..With sincere hopes, i wish it would stay there for longer period of time...

Cheery Spirit FIGHT ON!!

So basically i'm still busy as ever...
Went back to school for DnT in the morning till 12pm,its not easy to do anything in DnT at all..

Saturday and Sunday was one of the most lifeless dates i've had but it was fun though expensive... We ate lunch at around 2pm at Just Acia, Played Lan Gaming till around 7pm, ate at pasta mania, watched Batman The Dark Knight at around 8.30..Its a great movie,with interestingly unexpected twists all around in every part of the story, slightly disgusted by the doings of the Joker, I realize i didn't know what was a real psycopath till I watched the movie..Go watch it, its real worthwhile even though your butt will feel sore after stitting for 2hours and about 40minutes..So after the movie we went back to our Lan Gaming at 12am till about 5.00am,Slept awhile at the MRT station till the 1st train arrived,took train back to Kovan, ate Macdonalds...~Macdonald is becoming more of a ripoff,everything gets smaller except the bill~..So went back to my cousin house at Kovan,Played Molopoly and fell asleep in between the game, so had a nice 3 hour sleep till 12pm..

After that went to eat lunch at the local hawker center(the cheapest fare of 2 days)yet after those stuffings,my stomach advised me not to eat or it might blow..sooo skipped lunch, then went to my house and did nothing for a good 2 hours before leaving for my grandmother's house in Punggol, then again did nothing much from about 5pm to now..

Lifeless life could be somewhat enjoyable once in awhile right!??

Remember to switch off your hp before the movie begin and also remember not to say out loud "The Joker Can Sometimes Be Quite Scary Ahs" in the middle of the show, cos my cousin's cousin did and the rest of us had no where to place our face..

Yes Racial Harmony Day arrived in a flashy manner where colourful and extravagrant clothings were dustily dugged out from closets, for a year has passed without chancing on it..

Firstly i'll would like to express my sincere thanks to Izzuddin,Carol,MayTze for coming my house to lend a hand in the weary task of making Origiri(jap rice ball), we finally made about 80-90 after 6 hours which is like 6pm-12am.. so i believe that the two magic words should be awarded to them honourably, Thank YOU!!!

The day was okay, except for its not exactly what i thought it would be, a fun filled exciting day was living in my imagination but the truth was, boredom...

so the day started with me waking up late due to fatique but managed to skim pass the assemble time, had Chemistry where we did MCQ worksheets(spoiled festive season mood)..Then after 70minutes another 70 minutes of PE follouwed, had the usual game of Basketball, today was filled with lots of laughter as lots of stupid things happened..

Then Slacking time comes as chinese period came, gave out some origiri to the class first as a prevention of not having one later on and whinning about it for i thought they'll be selling like hot cakes only that this time its free..Then went down to prepare for our stall, we had

1. Origiri
2. Mutu Mayam
3. Roti Prata
4. Pandan Cake 0.0?
5. Curry Puff
6. 2 A&W(rootbeer) 1 FnN Grape, 1 Sprite

that was all we had..

The place was flooded with people as our walkway was minimized as the rained had made a barrier outside the walkway, due to laziness, just mended the stall for the whole time there, cleaned up after everything...

Went back to class took photos, men only club first, Then the whole class...


NERD VERSION 1

NERD VERSION 2

Look I Grew, I'm The Tallest

Freestyles

Act Cute..Shudders..

Fierce Looking/Gorilla Looking

Presenting 4E Multi-racial Restaurant

A Pic With Liying( it was hard to adjust the height..)

4E With An Extra Teacher(the one in the center XP)

Racial Formal 4E

A Rare Formal Occasion..

15th July, Tuesday

I was late the second time, i have no idea why was i late, the only two reason was that i didn't wake up early enough(though its the same timing) or it was because of the timing of the bus changed or was delayed.. 1 more chance before an hour of detention...

was quite alive and kicking as i slept from 8pm+ to 6am+, was released at 12:50 and hanged out in school as we had chinese Olevel listening compre..

Regarding on the chinese Olevel, i'm sure i had managed to hug a buddha's leg as i hadn't revised my rusty, untouched 2 months of chinese but i think i did quite well..



Green Tea Lovers~ + 1 extra soymilk


16th July, Wednesday

Things started out fine, with everything turning out right, nothing felt amiss, the hunch that things will be going wrong, wasn't there too..I smiled as i lived today normally..Or so i thought i'll be...
An Upside Down situation occured right after school...remedials started,maths questions were in alien language..couldn't move my pen to answer them, those simple yet deep questions without answers...
Lost my cool when discussing about the class T-shirt
Luckless in Scrabble competition
played with 3 others who was a total opposite of me
got nothing but cosonauts instead of vowels..
ended too late, couldn't go for DnT..

Then i thought maybe lady luck finally smiled at me for, a rainbow was bestowed against me while i stood alone in that silent wavering busstop




Yet, little that i knew, it was a warning that nothing else would turn out right for me...Drama had problems, i've spend 1-2hours trying to resolve it,trying to get more attendence but my efforts were more or less futile..Disappointment filled my heart, i've thought i've suceeded in uniting this "used to" group of strangers yet..

All i see was unity before performance
and scattering apart after every performance
this isn't the way it should be
i should have already done my job
i don't have much time left
how would this story ends?
things would never stay simple huh..

Though Little, I Know I Tried, I Know I Sacrificed...
With 1 more month left, what changes could i make??

...Nothing Endures But Change...

i'll like to say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO IZZUDDIN 1st, as i didn't touch the computer for the weekends for i've been staying at my gramps at ponggol with my cousin n brother..

Schoolwork has never left my mind, but i never realli got started on anything...It wasn't the fun but the discouraged feeling, theres many things i couldn't do..What'll happen to my 'O's??

Anyway the sense of acknowledgement realli hits the roof..Disallowing any thing except for a smile from ear to ear...I've noticed n remembered, a new promise you made...maybe this time...it'll be right??



Lastly...I think the reason why i still doesn't have a dream eversince a week ago, when i wrote that letter to Dream, was that, i believed...maybe in him? maybe in not having a dream? or maybe it was my fear that another bad dream would occur and materialize into reality...


Welll... theres many theory of where would you go after death, some people believes that we reincarnate, some people felt that we go either hell or heaven, but from young i've felt that, we might just be shifted to another dimension where we relive what we lived, (which means that in another dimention, i'll writing this down too AND you would be reading this post)Dreams might be our forgotten fragmented memories we had before as we had lived this life before..That explains the DeJaVu feeling...Maybe we have died and we swapped dimention when we sleep...

Too Deep for you?? ^^

awww..just missed 11.11

Glad to announce that the Drama team, The Warriors(seniors) has advanced to the Finals in National Crime Prevention but still, behind every light theres a shadow lurking, the junior team journey in the National Crime Prevention has ended.

This has caused me been torn both ways, devastated as we had so high hopes of getting into the finals together yet elated for we've prolonged out period in Drama..

But its okay, the juniors have still 2-3 years ahead of them... I'm already missing them..." signs "


Dreamless nights awaits... Guess Mr Dream had read my letter.. No more sweet dreams.


Emotionally, i've been almost cheered up completely, reason?? A secret, Geeeez...

I'll return to that alluring bed,with promising dreamless dreams

A meaningless and nothingless day with nothing planned except to lie back and finally have time to trap down these fluttering thoughts.. Though it wasn't realli what i wanted..But anyway, I was pulled out of the boredom abyss by my cousin and my cousin's cousin.. We went to watch Hancock( wasn't a bad movie, funny, meaningful with quite a good plot(though more space to develop the story)its worth your money and time)

So the timeplan for today is~~

9am-1pm had nothing to do, just slack around and wait for time to pass

1pm-1.30pm went out to plaza singapura and cathay

1.30pm - 2.30pm arcaded(practically just watched my cousin play and walked around)

2.30pm - 4pm in cinema watching Hancock

4pm - 5pm arcaded again

5pm - 6.10pm ate at JustAcia

6.10pm - 8pm arcaded again and again

8pm - 9pm played pointless yet fun filled catching with cousin, teasing cousin's cousin in Plaza Singapura 7th Floor

9pm - 9.30pm walked around

9.30pm - 10pm went and reached home

10pm - current here i am

Well it brightened my day at least..sometimes with boredom sometimes with fun


To: Mr Karma

You're not always around yet you're always around, I'm unsure if i'm bearing a meaningless doubt against you but still I hope that if you're bring it to ...... then please stop. You didn't have to make it so bad..You didn't have to make the day dull..You didn't have to shed angers..You didn't have to create regrets... Its fine, its fine, I don't want other to suffer just because of a misjudgement or rash of excitment, you could say that theres something else to do, its not my life..neither that the promise had to be kept...
I thank you but i must say sorry for you've appeared at the wrong time yet again...I'm thankful and apologetic..But please if theres anyway, consult with me first...

With Pleas
Zynnek

A Shadow From Your Past

I never understood nor understand
all the things you wanted to hide
from a hideous creature named me
What did I ever did
or what did i never did
was a solemn mystery, left unsolved.

You shared your secrets
and your deep hatred
with me, you once did.

It became different, never the same
It was a nightmare, from a bad dream
A shadow, formed in the past
A sunlight, that never last
Your promises never came alive
like how my dreams slowly died
But you hadn't see who was I
yet that never mattered
for I'm already a shadow from the past.

You can wake me but you wouldn't
You can love me but you couldn't
You can stop me but you shouldn't
as its far too late
to take back the words I said.

This fragment contains your memory
of this hideous creature, named me
A shadow from your past.


I've been dragged around from the inside with no means to fight, things tugged along my conscious.

#1.Yes it does matter even though I said it didn't mattered
Yes it bothered me when you didn't come
Yes it wasn't much but I just could not come over it
Yes it shouldn't happen but It Did
Yes it can wait and die off but how can we be sure?
Yes it never started but for me it did
Yes it may not be the first but it felt like it is
Yes it might just go away but when?
Yes it isn't your fault and I'm just silly, I know.

#2.I really don't want this to end
I don't want my name to be erased in the attendence book
I want to keep moving on in Drama
I wish to be in it still

Yet I understand that all good things will come to an end...

I've found out 1 thing i'm truly afraid of..Endings

Ignite was today, i've held back those suffocation today, and went for it with all that i had, since it'll be the last performance we will have as a full drama club -1..
It went great, our eyes are red, from weariness and stress combined with tears of joy and pressure couriered along with memories..

I don't have much to say, major events always lacks words for no words could describe...



With tears i write
for dreams i fight
from truth i hide
to wish i glide

Never understood, why is that if you're not going, why does it affect me so much, futhermore it wasn't the first time..

Spent the day trying to sleep in school, trying to escape in my dreams, but unlike other days, i couldn't even sleep a wink, not even for a second after tossing around my head so much..

To: Dream

Why is it that you take me whenever i never wanted and only bring me when i resist, does watching me struggle feeds you enjoyment?? You never failed to show me what i didn't want to believe nor see, please stop this charade, let me live on, bring back my smile in my dream..

with simply disregard
Zynnek

Though the feeling remained ensnared inside my chest, waiting to burst out as soon as possible, suffocating its hard to breathe, my false smile that never failed to succeed, today it firstly failed to decieve..But those we noticed were many, those who didn't made a sound was plenty, and my thanks to those who asked and cared or even tried to remove me from that resonating thought..From my deepest heart, i thank you for you had cared.

PS. Drama Go Go Go!!! Only the best for ignite!!!!!

PCSS Upper Sec (The Warriors) presenting Satay Wars


PCSS Lower Sec (Scammers) presenting To Steal Or Not To Steal

Things hadn't change, still busy and still stress-ing, well didn't have much mood to post neither have anytime...
I still couldn't see why is it hard to juggle drama and studies,(other then the time which is used up by dnt)

and sooo...Since my memory is short termed,i could and only would post yesterday's and today's Day...

2nd July Wednesday

Yeaps, Its the 1st week and its a Wednesday, which means Bring Your Own Bag Day!!!
but still..I see people buying things and a plastic bag is given, no questions asked at all. So maybe this plan has failed it purpose, especially when these typical Singapore Workers "FORGET" about it...

And suprisingly, in my 13 years of school(including kindergarden n nursery), I am finally late for school!!!, well not suprising for you but it is for meI've never seen it with my name on. So after my major distribution of chewing gums and bubble gums to my lucky classmate, the classes began, from the start till the end, you could see people's mouth chewing away...Okay another simple day where we read and "learn" or simply just fall asleep. After school remedials soon followed and made us do a fustrating maths paper, futhermore under the humid and heat rising temperature, Blood was hot rather than warm.. Yes and another session of "doing nothing as mr Lam is not here" DnT remedial.. My artefact is probably going to the pits of hell...(WHY IS A CRAB SO HARD TO FINISH)

So went home, celebrated my dad's birthday and End Of The Day...


3rd July Thursday

Was Superbly energetic in the morning( something I hadn't experience for a long time)The Resson Why?? Today was my semi-finals for the National Crime Prevention(NCP).. Wasn't easy juggling with practices for Ignite and NCP..So went to drama at 9am after 1 period of MT..Practiced all the way to 1pm then left and went there to perform..
I must say it the ZhengHua Sec wasn't too bad,

their 1st team was strong in their usuage of English and interesting structure built by humans( i mean they themselves are the structure)but it was alittle draggy

and team 2 was strong in their storyline and interesting stage blocking at first but usage of english isn't there..

well, as for my own teams..No comments? Maybe i've watched it too many times??

Okay done with that, returned to school and went to the prata Store, cracked jokes like how we crack eggs.. and its all in a day.. Thats a wrap..

DEBATE!!
Our Dilligent Propsman
MONKEY!!!
Lower Sec Practice.

1 last thing

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUZANNE!!