It was bowling yesterday and its mahjong once again today... firstly at cousin's house for "extended" CNY and now witnessing mahjong at Joel's house with him,trev,richard,joey...

Things that you hadn't done for such a long time has been entertaining like how we always allow the child to pop out everytime something from our past appears, i think afterall, CNY's best offer offered to me is the adult's screaming laughter while they play little gambles, while we the younger generation starts acting like adults..Ironic role reversal...

Applied 2 temp jobs..
1. Epicenter's flyer distribution at IT show
2. Charles & Keith packer/sales at warehouse sale..

get the last batch of cash this holis to supply for the europe trip...

Today i thought i saw you, i thought i've let you go, i believed so, i wanted so, i wished so, but then why do my chest felt the thumps and all the little observant eyes started to sense "your" movement, yet so afraid to confirm, so afraid to approach you, so afraid to text you.. Now i'm covered in cowardice and worries..Why did she have to look like you, why does my heart suddenly feel so guilty..Isn't it just a habit that i've grown so accustomed to, yet the toll came and now i'm always asking for more, seeking for something you would do for me in exchange..But then again, who was i kidding... I'm really unsure if i've forgotten you, i'm unsure if i've let you go, i'm bewildered if i've fallen for another, but i'm pretty affirmative that its really something i can't define but then i'm really not in the mood to think anymore..No decisions that i wanna make.. Closed eyes, pinched arm, teeth marked knuckles..

Nothing but an indecisive, inconsiderate, in deceptive jerk